I just had a messed up nightmare and it left me awake and freaking... Mainly the part that scared the bejeezus out of me was I got a phone call from Evelyn's school and they said they couldn't find her,,, that she was missing from class...they said they would do a search and get back to me... I said ok not thinking much at the time... then a lil while later they called back to say ... "We still haven't found her, We believe her to be dead..." How bizarre is that...?

If you know me, you might know I have really vivid crazy dreams just about every night... usually funny or odd, not scary...

As a believer in dream symbols I do know that death is just a symbol for change...

Still can't get over how much of a shock it was though... Even in a half sleep like state I could feel my heart drop right out of my chest.

Of course when I woke up from it I immediately went to her room and checked on her, she was fine of course, deep in sleep just like a little angel.

gah... !

It's snowing and I should go back to bed ...