Back to work wasn't a bad experience for me .... I haven't had much trouble getting myself out of bed in the morning ( since I am NOT a morning person ! ) I've actually got a little bit of a morning routine thing happening...nice to have coffee and cereal or whatever in the morning while I watch Today and then take off... Better than rolling out of bed throwing on anything clean and hitting the door only to walk into work 10 or 5 minutes late anyway...
It's got to be the Celexa I started back last fall... Gosh I love them...
Ya know I have been reading a lot of what My dear friend LA has been going through in her quest for freedom and independence... She mentioned how her soon to be ex really has no redeeeming qualities... In the trying time I am experiencing with my own husband I can count myself lucky... We have had some rough patches, and it sure hasn't been smooth sailing the last (almost) 6 years that we have been married, But I really cannot condemn him as a failure as a husband... He is good at the emotional support thing, He tells me "I love you" ( and means it sincerely ) at least a dozen times a day, Sexually he constantly makes sure all of my "needs" are met before his own. He takes charge in the house and tends to clean things and keep things more in order than I do... He cooks and cleans and I can honestly say I have used the washer and dryer ONE time since we bought it - He does all of the laundry ( hauls it up and down and folds and puts it away. So he smokes way entirely too much (pack and a half a day) So he doesn't have a job right now and quit a very well paying one to most likely go back to wal-mart (he hasn't went without working ever in the time we've been together), So he is an antisocial bastard.. I do love him and I do count myself lucky. Next time I complain, feel free to tell me do just deal with it...!
I filed a application with FIA (State welfare) this morning, I have an appintment with a case worker on the 25th... See what comes from it... Ryan has 2 more weeks of unemployment left then nada... I will be taking home less than $300.00 per week so things will be tight... Fuck it, Once upon a time I was a single mom and never utilized any services from the state... I am at the point I figure I have paid my dues to society, Why struggle so hard if we don't need to...

This week has just flown by...Friday already tomorrow... whew !