What an intersting week let me just say there was a vibe of good bad and downright ugly in the homestead... Seeing my ex was very nice, I had forgotten all of the things we really connected on... Somewhere along the line we would have been a match made in heaven, but he is way out there with a common law wife and no plans on changing that.
Ryan came and took the kids home with him for the better part of the week and that was wonderful, I missed my kids dearly, But part of me was so glad to be free...
While Ryan was on his way to bring the kids home on Thursday morning I got a call from "the homewrecker" It was the fist time we'd spoken since I basically called her everything but a nice girl on the phone the day Ryan left me. The conversation lasted all but maybe 10 minutes and it was wonderful, I got my nice little jabs in without sounding snarky... She and I after all have to get along if she's gonna be living with him and the kids are gonna visit. I am such a big person I know.
In the land of the boy toy, He made his presence known this week, But then ended the week by basically breaking my heart in a sort of way... He told me he'd fooled around with one of his friends on Monday. I took it as a hard blow, probably mostly because I'd missed a couple of doses of my antidepression meds. On one hand I don't have ties with him Ihe's been honest from the very beginning that he doesn't want a girlfriend, Then on the other hand I felt the last couple of weeks we were growing closer, ( probably wishful thinking on my part ) I really want to talk to him, but I don't want to say too much and have him back off... We discussed things the other night and he did tell me that eventhough he "fooled around" with that friend of his... He isn't having SEX with anyone but me... It was supposed to make me feel better i think, But it didn't...
We'll talk more tonight, He'll be over soon.
I got my "tramp stamp" Tattoo on my back... I will be posting pictures as soon as J sends them to me... as far as I could tell it turned out nice...everyone that has seen it has liked it. hard to see since I have no mirrors that are full length in my house. It's a rose with two four leaf clovers on each side with a banner underneath that reads "LUCKY". It took 3 hrs. with some breaks therein.
He also touched up my rose on my hand I tend to lose color in it so easy so I need it recolored every few years.
so this week drinks were drunk, Herb was smoked and pain was had, friends were near and tears were shed... overall it wasn't a bad time.