Well the decision has been made... I am not letting him hurt my heart, head and life anymore... I am not filing for divorce just now due to financial problems but I have chosen that path. I will not be taking him back into my life.
The kids are dealing... this morning Evie said "if daddy isn't coming back we need a new daddy..." She also didn't want me to leave daycare when I dropped her off she outstretched her little arms in front of the door "your not leaving mom" it is so heartwrenching seeing what they are going through.
This too shall pass is my mantra for the time being... I am in the midst of every emotion, but coping well because I am taking the time to think of my needs and the kids needs first and foremost, In fact I am surprised at how well I am moving on and starting to take charge.
He's been gone since Friday night and he hasn't checked in with the kids once. almost a week.
I am wondering if he really did go to his parents house or if he is shacking up with his little chickie... Most likely he is with his parents, But you'd think they would be pushing him to make contact with his kids.
Today he is able to pick up his last paycheck from Wal-mart. Hopefully he will hand some of it over to me, Being that it is only fair... I am not holding my breath though.
It's sickening that he can just walk away and have no regrets or guilt over making the kids feel the way that they do.
For today I can hold my head up high and know I am doing the right thing and when the dust settles Spence and Evie will know that thir mom did right by them.