I am coming around to the idea that I probably won't take Ryan back ... I love him but there is so much pain and so much lost between us I don't think it is worth trying to rebuild it.
He has obviously given up and I can't be the only one trying to fight ...
I went to apply for State Aid today... put my application in and I have an appointment on Friday morning to see a worker... Hopefully they can help me get the gas turned back on in the house... you never know how much you miss the little things until you don't have them.
I suppose the last comment works for everything in my life right now...
I am coping as best as I can getting what i need done... focusing on the kids they are all that matter at the moment...