Waiting for Someday...

>>> accepting and trying to moving forward...


Night one back in the house... We talked and talked... sorted some things out... He knows he did the wrong thing...
To say he made the error just because he is a guy and that is what guys do ... well it's a pretty accurate thing, although not completely true.
Ryan has always had a low self esteem, Evidently this girl pumped his ego by flirting and coming on so strong as she did... They'd been hanging out at work for about a week, and the end of last week she'd told him she loved him and wanted him to move in with her... Yea she sounded a little desparate to me too...
Ryan of course was feeling like "wow someone is showing me attention" and of course the thought of saying "NO" never crossed his mind.
She new he was married, in fact she is going through a divorce at the moment herself.
I told Ryan we need to go to for counceling...
We are trying to move past this...
I told him that was the last time... next time there will be no tears or begging him to stay... His ass will hit the curb faster than I can say get the fuck out...!
People do this right... I mean I am not an idiot for taking him back...? I Know that there is a HUGE chance it could happen again... But, Like I said he knows the consequences. One thing I have to say is ... He did tell me, He could have been fucking around on me behind my back for months or years...
I don't know... hopefully we can get some help to mend our fractured marriage...
I do appreciate all of the notes emails... I need support of all my friends... and It truly does make a difference all of the words make me think and comfort me...
Much Love to you all ...!!!



posted by Lana @ 9:48 a.m. on 2006-08-04

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