Well all hell broke loose this morning... I seriously was in denial, I thought at the last moment Ryan would suck it up and leave for work, then he didn't and we fought.
After a few hours of talking before i went to work we squared things away and eventhough everything isn't kittens and rainbows and I anticipate a bit of financial hardship on the horizon I do know that we will make it through...
Ryan has a few weeks of unemployment left and he is gonna be out tomorrow scounting for a job, Wanna place bets he will end up at wal-mart again...?
It's ok, good thing I am not a material person, pretty low maintenance... hell I am not even too proud... I forsee myself strolling into the FIA office in the next couple of weeks ( does that make me that much of a loser...? ) My mom always says that it's the hard times that bring people together...

Speaking of the family... I talked to Pat this morning and he didn't throw that much of a fit, he just said Ryan would be replaced... and when I started to cry he told me not to worry that things would work out.

My dad didn't even say anything which I thought was unbelievable... he always says what ever is on his mind, no matter who he hurts. All he said was that Ryan should have told them sooner so that they could have hired a replacement.
Ryan has an appointment 2 weeks from Thursday .. physical and gonna see if he can get some medication for his antisocial behavior... maybe he will have a change of attitude then... He is depressed, anxious and antisocial... he needs help and has needed it for a long time, I think it has taken something this drastic to make him realize...

sad news today as well...
May you rest in peace...

"Dawg....I shouldn't have left, They wouldn't have tried this shit if I was wit ya
Maybe we would have picked another time
Or chose anotha way
Or maybe my prayers would have convinced him to choose another soul
Shit, its just me and my mentoni now
Man you look so peaceful now...how can I argue wit that
They say... the good die young,
Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young)
Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh)
When god calls, you gotta go home (go home)