Tomorrow Ryan will be all moved back in... While I know I will have a backlash of gigantic proportions on my hands of people scolding me for being a complete dumbass for allowing him back into my life, I have made that decision...
My parents and my brother have told me in no uncertian terms that they are "done with me" should I ever take Ryan back...
I haven't told them yet...
I feel good about the decision, yet being that my whole social cirle and family unit are going to be upset by this...It has been somewhat nerving ( is that a word...? )
I just want to be happy...
I have to try or I will always wonder...
Much counceling is to be had...
And things will definately be so much different this time... I will stick to my beliefs and never do anything, just to please him, While sacrificing my integrity to myself.
It has been a LONG 6 months...
Not too much in my life will change except for the fact I had to lose the Boy Toy... Which really wasn't that much of a loss knowing that it wasn't going anywhere anyway... Besides I forgot to tell ya'll about the wonderful gift he gave me a few weeks ago a nice case of chlamydia... Yet another reason I was never jazzed about being a single person...
So anyway there it is... criticize if you will I am sure it won't be the first or the last I hear about it...