Why am I listening to Eminem this flippen early in the morning...? My itunes is being mean I think...

So lots has been happening, Like you couldn't tell, I havent updated in a while.

Ryan came home sick as a pup and we basically took it easy this past weekend. Lots of hanging out and just talking. Sunday morning before he left I curled up on the couch with my head in his lap as he stroked my hair and told me how much he is gonna miss me.

Sunday morning was an interesting morning indeed... Ryan's mother called, Crisis in perfectville. Actually it is kind of sad, Apparently Ryan's sister and her perfect life aren't going so well... Her wonderful husband isn't all that wonderful after all. He is completely controlling, to the point of Kendra not talking to her family, or friends. He's taken all of that freedom away, He doesn't let her work and earn money, yet he doesn't give her money for anything, Including things like diapers and etc. for the baby. They have no cable or telephone. So basically her life is sitting home everyday, with a 4 month old baby, no tv no telephone, not allowed to spend time with her family who live just down the street. It's insane.
What Lori called for is now Kendra had to have a biopsy done because of pain and a lump she had in her breast. Ryan's mom wanted Ryan to know. She also talked about how Kendra's husband wants to move her away now to WI. He said his grandparents have offered them a place to stay and his grandpa is gonna get him a job, since he apparently cannot hold one where he is at because he gets fired all of the time. Ryan's mom wants Ryan to talk some sense into his sister, See if she will open up to him on the relationship. Everyone knows how bad it has gotten but Kendra, She's blinded by love.
I have so been there, It took me so much strength and courage to get out of the situation I was in with John. One day I just woke up and said to myself I am not dealing with it anymore. and with the encouragement of my friends and family I got out of it. My situation was differnt in a way though, My experience was more physical abuse than mental emotional abuse like she is enduring although no one really knows if her situation involves physical abuse as well.
As much resentment and jealousy I have had for her in the past few years, I can't help but feel for her, I know EXACTLY where her head is right now. I am sad for her, and hopeful that she doesn't let this situation continue.
Ryan and I are waiting for the news of her biopsy results, crossing our fingers they are not bad, Ryan is a complete wreck. Through all of the problems in his family he has always had love for his sister. They were close growing up.
His plan is to talk to her and feel out the situation, and if need be, go to his sisters house when he comes home next, and try to convince her to separate for a while and move back in with their family. She should not be living like that.

The things we do for men...!

Yesterday I went and had my teeth cleaned, I went to school with my hygienist, she graduated a couple of years before me. I had a good checkup it took her like 2 minutes to clean and polish my teeth. exciting news for me as you all know that the dentist office is one of my least happiest places to be. It seems as though I do have a small teeny cavity (discoloration) poking through on one of my molars, so I have to go back on the 6th of October, fucking yay ! But all in all it was good to know my mouth is healthy.
Floss kids, Seriously! - Trust me on this.
You know it is pretty sad when it's 10:30 and you already want a nap...

Spencer and I had it out this morning, His teacher sent home some info mentioning that the kids are allowed to keep water bottles on their desks during class ( it supposedly cuts down on time taken for drinking fountain breaks ) She said that the kids are not to bring juice or pop ( or "soda" as some of you silly people call it ) Spencer fought the topic all morning, he wanted to bring juice in it and I explained he wasn't allowed that his teacher said it was a rule. GRRRRR...!!! Mornings are busy and stressful enough for me the non morning person, I hate when the kids make it even moreso.

Have I mentioned that Friday is Mine and Ryan's 5th Wedding Anniversary...? Yep I cannot believe we have made it so long, yet it seems like just yesterday we met. We sure have been through a lot, they say the first few years of marriage are the toughest... So bummer that he won't be home to celebrate with me, But we will have a lot of time to celebrate this winter. I am gonna send him flowers tho, That should brighten his day.
Big drag that he will miss our anniversary, We are hoping he will be home for the weekend to celebrate Evie's Birthday on the 10th of October and Mine on the 15th... It's hard.
I told Lee he is taking me out for my birthday regardless if Ryan is home or not... I wanna have a rip roaring time this year, I have been feeling SO old lately, I feel the need to kick up my heels and get crazy. Thirty-three...! Remember when you were little and thought 33 was OLD...!?!?!?!